Needing Help

It has been a while since I've actually posted anything on my heart. Needless to say, my life has been quite busy the last several weeks. I've transitioned into a full time job at SOAR as the Assistant Director and interim director. I've been overwhelmed, frustrated, humbled, and encouraged all within the scope of the time this has happened. I'm excited to see how God is using me now in this transition and challenging me as a leader and believer in Him. Nothing is worth it unless I believe it's about Him and not me.

One of the most important things I've been learning is that I'm being broken of my independent attitude that I have to do it all by myself. I love to help people, but have a hard time asking for help or allowing other to help if they ask. Why is that? Where does this come from?

Well, I think it comes from my need to feel valued, accepted, and confidence that I can complete the task. All of these thoughts are valid, but need to be in line with Christ and His teachings. As I was talking with my friend, Anna, after a frustrating day over a week ago, we came to the thought that sometimes we don't allow ourselves to be human. We don't allow ourselves to mess up or allow for mistakes. I don't think that I'm above others or that I'm aware of this on a daily basis. This leads me to why I don't want to ask for help. I'm afraid of letting others down if something doesn't get done. I set such a high standard for myself that when I don't met it, I feel liked I have failed. This is where I don't allow the Grace of God to enter my heart at times. I've already set myself up for something that I cannot meet on my own. He set the standard and allows us to enter the throne of Grace when in need.

So, I'm learning that I cannot do 2 jobs by myself. I cannot control situations that aren't in my control. I cannot stand alone on my own. I NEED the help of God. I NEED others to help. I NEED friends, family, and support from volunteers who want to step up. I NEED to Step Up. I NEED to lean on Christ. I NEED to lead out of His Grace.

In short, I'm in NEED of Him and all that He is....Help me along in this journey.....

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